Grateful

Its been a whole month since you’ve heard from me. That’s because I have discovered David Thorne and have been reading his archived blog entries this whole time. Okay, not really. But, he’s REALLY funny and very entertaining. Its my new passtime and I encourage you to check him out. ¬†You won’t be disappointed…and if you are, well then you seriously have no sense of humor.

I have been home for over a month. I got home from the hospital the day after Mother’s Day. Ironic it couldn’t have be ON Mother’s Day, right? I mean, it would’ve been a great gift. But, oh well, the universe works in its own ways. Here’s all the good news. The doctors continue to say that the leukemia is gone and that I should not need any further treatment. I had weekly, then bi-weekly checkups. I have now graduated to seeing my oncologist in August. I had my port removed, therefore meaning my doctor thinks I won’t need it anymore. I take all of this with a grain of salt. The more I read, I think most cancer patients/survivors can agree. Don’t get me wrong I am more than happy with all the progress I have made. I am ecstatic that I don’t have to have any more chemo right now. Am I gun shy? You bet. Am I looking over my shoulder wondering if its going to come back? You bet. I’m not sure at what point you let go of those feelings a bit. I certainly have a chance of relapse. I also have a chance of getting hit by a car tomorrow. I guess its all about mindset and not letting fear take control.

Mothers Day 2014

Mothers Day 2014

I am grateful. Grateful that I get to be home with my kids this summer. I’ve never had a block of time where I am not working and I am just a full-time, stay at home mom. I may never have this opportunity again and I am happy that we are making up for “lost time.” I am also totally adjusting to being at home ALL the time with my kids. If there is a mom out there that says she loves it and its just totally awesome – I am pretty sure she is blowing smoke up our a$$. We all wish for a few minutes of piece and quiet, feel like we are going crazy from time to time and count down the days until school starts again. I don’t care what any other mom says. But again, right now, I wouldn’t trade it for the world.

What else am I grateful for? Driving my own car and going to Dairy Queen if my daughter ice cream fiend feels like it (…or if I feel like it.) One just opened up RIGHT by our house and this is really the worst thing in the world. I have had to instill an “every other day schedule” so we aren’t complete fatties. I can pump my own gas. And feed my dogs. I can sleep in my own bed. Going to Ava’s dance recital. Taking the kids to a birthday party.You get the point. Unless you’ve been in the hospital for weeks on end, you don’t realize all the freedoms you’re denied. I am happy to have them back. So, moral of the story? (There’s always one…) Even when stupid, crappy things happen in my day, I am still sort of grateful that they happened because if I was sick and in the hospital, they wouldn’t have happened at all.

Ava & I at her dance recital.

Ava & I at her dance recital.

Grady at one of the most recent birthday parties.

Grady at one of the most recent birthday parties.

 

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